Ohio Visit

I've been putting this off because I don't really know how to say what's in my heart and mind here. We (my older sister, her two kids, my son and I), went out to Ohio last week to visit family. Really, we went out because Grandma is dying. She hasn't been out of bed for almost 2 weeks now. I was able to stay out there for an extra couple of days to get a bit more time to visit with her and with my mom and siblings who are still at home. Grandma was able to meet my baby boy, and held him on her lap for awhile. That was the last time she has sat up. It was incredibly hard to see her so weak and in pain. This is the lady who broke her hip - she broke the ball off of her hip joint - and stood up leaning on the car so the EMTs wouldn't find her on the ground. So for her to admit that she's in too much pain to sit up means that it's a lot! I was so glad to see her, and that she got to meet my sweet son. I got a picture of the two of them that I'll share with you all later. Mentally, she's still the same person she's always been. She told some of her favorite stories, gave advice, and chuckled and rolled her eyes at my stories. She's obviously lonely, I was glad to be company for her. I'm also glad that my siblings are there every weekday afternoon after school to keep her company. This is all so garbled, but that's how it is in my head, so it would have to come out that way. There is so much more I want to say, other heartaches from that visit, but it just won't come out. There are things I just can't open up and share with the world. I was glad for the visit, and am so very glad to be home again, in my own home, with my two guys.